MHGO #56 Newsflash

Listen. People cheat. It happens every day and no one pays attention. I am amazed at this whole celebrity cheating scandle thing that has been the hottest news since 9/11. I mean really?

I have 2 points.

1. Sandra Bullock needs to divorce his ass and get a 10. Really honey fuck him. He is a fucking freak and you deserve a 10 not a 7.5.

2. Elan you are a retarded bitch. If my ex was Tiger Woods, I would totally understand, and he would not be my ex. He is TIGER FUCKIN WOODS! You know how many girls want to throw him some strange? As long has he kept food in my belly, gas in my Bentley, a mansion over my head and YSL shoes on my feet.. I hope he fucked her good.. and whats for dinner? Bitch you screwed up... oh and Tiger.. stop crying. You have the biggest balls in golf and a shit ton of money.. go bang a stripper... or 20.

That's just my humble gay opinion

-M

MHGO #55 Potato sprouting roots

Sometimes I feel like absolutely no one cares about me. I know this isn't true. My mind knows it is not true...but it seems this way sometimes.

It is really HARD for me to do the daily things that everyone may take for granted. I want to go out and breathe fresh air.. I want to get coffee. I repeat.. i want to get coffee so bad. I used to do this everyday,and will never take it for granted again.

I really do feel that I am truly alone. When you spend 24-48-72 hours alone with out as much as a phone call this happens I suppose.

Really we take life and human contact for granted. I am pissed at the world.. it isn't good.

Random.

-M

MHGO #54 Couch Potato

Last Thursday, 3/4/10 I fell on some ice and fractured my right fibula and also managed to twist my ankle in such a way that it tore a ligament and I required 2 screws in my ankle to secure my bones so the ligament can re-attach.

I am off work for at least 6 weeks and going on STD (short term disability). This sucks beyond belief. I spend my days texting people, playing World of Warcraft, and trying to get people to come and visit me.

Just an entry to catalog an event in my life. More to come as I go stir crazy i am sure. Cabin fever is a bitch.

-M

MHGO #53 Caught in a Bad Romance

How cupid would usually join/force others to fall in love with each other, I have been sent to do what I do best: blog about (ahem) Valentines Day.

To be honest, this day has never really meant that much to me. It probably might have only got to me today, when I had to help about 400 needy couples. The post text of seeing such behavior is what will be presented.

As I have said or expressed several times, I believe we find solace and answers in the places we last look, and the friends we have neglected. I have spent the last 2 weeks trying to re-connect and affirm my relationship with people whom I have neglected for far too long. (Mot is the gay fad)

I listened to Alice in Chains "Heaven Beside You" for the 78th or so time in my life yesterday. When I was able to have everything else in my head shut up for 5 minutes, I was able to hear the lyrics that were being sung. The amazing lyrics that came out of the lead's mouth were some of the most heartfelt and experienced I have heard. An excerpt:

Like the coldest winter chill, Heaven beside you....Hell within".


I heard these lyrics today like they were fresh and new. I realized I had accepted the problems and challenges of my past and that I was moving through them to a new and better life. I believe that we all in some way live our life this way...Heaven is right beside us, so easy to get. If that is the case...why do we choose the Hell?

MHGO #52 Dummy Sex

I want to start this entry by saying I am not writing this promoting one band or group.

I wish everyone knew the power of great music. By "great" I mean "mind blowing", and by "mind blowing" I mean beyond explanation. I guess when I start a post like this, it would seem that there is no pleasing the author, which is totally incorrect.

I met my first boyfriend David when i was 18/19 in College. He was a great guy that just didn't work out, but there will always be one thing that sticks in my mind and has changed my life from it. That thing is the music we shared the weekend we visited the city I now live in.

David and I rented a hotel room. I remember spending as much as I could afford, and I think the hotel is still there but will remain nameless. (yes it is off the mag mile) That night I had the most amazing sexual and musical connection of my life. Sparing the details we made love listening to the album "Dummy' by Portishead. Now those of you that may know their music would think "how in the world is that sexy or even happy", and I thought the same thing until it randomly hit my iPod and I was too "involved" to get up and change it.

I just downloaded the album again, and it brings back so many memories. Great music changes your life, and has always provided me with more memories worth reflecting on than anything else in my life...

Have you ever had an experience like this...I would love to share.

-M

MHGO #51 Grammy Award Predictions..being honest.

I am going to predict now, even though I disagree with myself but I am being realistic:

1. Best New Artist: Taylor Swift
2. Song of the year: Single Ladies, Beyonce
3. Record of the year: Kings of Leon, Use Somebody
4. Album of the year : The Fame, Lady Gaga.

Obviously some of these are not my first choice, but I tend to be pretty knowledgeable and accurate with music award shows that actually listen to the music being judged. We will see how it ends up. But until it is fully announced tonight, along with the 3D "Liz Taylor, Jenga, Blanket, Elephant Man's body exploition... we can just pray. I will blog after it is all done. Stay tuned.

-M

MHGO #50 Getting Taller

Getting taller is an amazing song in the "real" Broadway Musical "NINE". In the song the main adult male lead is serenaded by himself as a youth. The song basically is about why the man can't get himself together when he knew more and seemed much smarter when he was a youth.

It seems that all of us can connect to this at some point in our lives. How many of us have said "If I knew then what I know now" or more relevant to this metaphor, "life was so much easier when I was young". Well why can't it be that way? Why can't we understand our conflicts we give ourselves as adults and decide to NOT have them. We should all close our eyes for a moment a day and remember to look at the things we have through a child's eyes..I think things would be so much less stressful. Things would just look pretty instead of costly. People would be seen for the fun you have with them, and not for what they are wearing or how attractive they are. I never remember being a child and thinking wow I bet he has a great body....well maybe not every time.

Could be true, could be false. But it is most certainly My humble gay opinion.

-M

MHGO #49 The trouble with reality is

So I am allowing myself a personal blog. Yeah, I guess it is not personal if I am publishing it to everyone but what the fuck... I finally think in the last week I have made peace with the break up of my relationship. It feels so weird to finally say that, and even more weird to even say the end of a relationship. I feel like I have been conditioned to be in a LTR, so when you have to change your mindset to date night or one night stand, it takes some gumption.

#50 is coming and with it I intend to leave all this in the past so what better way than post 49? Boys are retarded. I realized I need a man. There is a distinct difference.

I have learned a couple new and important lessons:

1. Breathing fresh air is important.

2. Everything that happened in the past is in the past.. and having read that.. it is now the future. What are you going to do to change it?

Tomorrow awaits,

-M