MHGO #53 Caught in a Bad Romance

How cupid would usually join/force others to fall in love with each other, I have been sent to do what I do best: blog about (ahem) Valentines Day.

To be honest, this day has never really meant that much to me. It probably might have only got to me today, when I had to help about 400 needy couples. The post text of seeing such behavior is what will be presented.

As I have said or expressed several times, I believe we find solace and answers in the places we last look, and the friends we have neglected. I have spent the last 2 weeks trying to re-connect and affirm my relationship with people whom I have neglected for far too long. (Mot is the gay fad)

I listened to Alice in Chains "Heaven Beside You" for the 78th or so time in my life yesterday. When I was able to have everything else in my head shut up for 5 minutes, I was able to hear the lyrics that were being sung. The amazing lyrics that came out of the lead's mouth were some of the most heartfelt and experienced I have heard. An excerpt:

Like the coldest winter chill, Heaven beside you....Hell within".


I heard these lyrics today like they were fresh and new. I realized I had accepted the problems and challenges of my past and that I was moving through them to a new and better life. I believe that we all in some way live our life this way...Heaven is right beside us, so easy to get. If that is the case...why do we choose the Hell?

MHGO #52 Dummy Sex

I want to start this entry by saying I am not writing this promoting one band or group.

I wish everyone knew the power of great music. By "great" I mean "mind blowing", and by "mind blowing" I mean beyond explanation. I guess when I start a post like this, it would seem that there is no pleasing the author, which is totally incorrect.

I met my first boyfriend David when i was 18/19 in College. He was a great guy that just didn't work out, but there will always be one thing that sticks in my mind and has changed my life from it. That thing is the music we shared the weekend we visited the city I now live in.

David and I rented a hotel room. I remember spending as much as I could afford, and I think the hotel is still there but will remain nameless. (yes it is off the mag mile) That night I had the most amazing sexual and musical connection of my life. Sparing the details we made love listening to the album "Dummy' by Portishead. Now those of you that may know their music would think "how in the world is that sexy or even happy", and I thought the same thing until it randomly hit my iPod and I was too "involved" to get up and change it.

I just downloaded the album again, and it brings back so many memories. Great music changes your life, and has always provided me with more memories worth reflecting on than anything else in my life...

Have you ever had an experience like this...I would love to share.

-M

MHGO #46 Harry

Wasn't it that movie "When Harry Met Sally" that they were the best of friends but figured that sex would ruin the relationship? I think I am going through the opposite. I think sometimes I fear that being the best person in the world would ruin our relationship. Maybe it is that if I act a certain way he will expect it. Or, conversely if I don't do all the things I am supposed to I can get away with it. I know I have been and am being selfish.

Trust me friends that is a hard thing for a bull nosed man like me to say.

I hope this all goes well. I really do. I have decided today that I no longer wanna be the asshole of the world. It was funny for awhile but now it is wearing thin. I would like to have said that it was me, but I know sometimes it was forced for other peoples laughter, and maybe that is what has caused my partner so much grief.... and that sucks.

-M

MHGO #009 $50 bucks a pop....literally!

Fake Kim Kardashian stops by for a brief snort,Who wants to fuck me? I only need 90 people, Free the rice queens in Tibet, and my official theme music all on todays My Humble Gay Opinion!





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MHGO #006 Fist Fuck

Wake up people!!! Why I have been gone so long, work pissing me off, my birds and retardation. Enjoy Sheeotch!!!

MHGO #005 Bottoms Invade

The bottoms invade MHGO. We find out the truth about BP, we see the real shit in a cup and what the fuck is the big deal about the Oscars? All on todays My Humble Gay Opinion!

MHGO #3 Tops vs. Bottoms

Why must we fight over supremacy? "Top" and "Bottom" has been a subject of much debate in every gay relationship and at every chat room and around the world. So who has the power? Who is the alpha male? Most people (gay men that is) would say that the power goes to the Top, because he is the one that has the unit that goes in the..well you get my drift. :-) I happen to have a very confidant boyfriend that begs to differ on the subject.

My husband has a little club he calls "BP" or Bottom Power. Now this little club is of the thought that bottoms are in charge because you need his ass to get yourself off. Without it, BP claims that Tops lie powerless with Rosy Palmer as a backup plan. I don't think this is entirely right though. Doesn't it and shouldn't it take two people? Is it really up to just one person to be the deciding vote on who is in charge of giving pleasure?

So then you have to look at the more stereotypical actions of these so called Bottoms and these so called Tops.

Tops kill bugs....bottoms scream at bugs.

Tops fuck ass....bottoms make sure the ass is clean for the top. (aren't they good!)

Tops have to get into fights for the bottoms....bottoms are ususally the ones causing and instigating the fight.

Yes I'm a top. And in my mind I will always be in charge. Or is that just what BP wants me to think?

I ultimately think that everyone is a little of both. I guess if it wasn't for the Bottoms there wouldn't be Tops to take care of them.